SO....

So I am thinking that I either need to get a part time job on top of my 45 hour job, or need to move back in with my sister. Babysitting fees on top of gas, rent, groceries, diapers is kicking my butt. And Jamie when you read this I am hiring you to potty train Bryn while you are here. I am going in sane. I refuse to change that butt till she is 5. I REFUSE! Anyway y'all. Sorry no pictures lately of me and Bryn. I don't ever see her anymore. But we went to raging water for like 4 hours the other day and it was super fun. I took some pictures that I'll put up, but there aren't many. And I have officially decided to go to school to be a dental hygienist, when I actually have time and am no longer in debt with medical bills. Cross your fingers!

My Birthday

Jakey and Me, he is my love. My best gay friend! As you look at these photos you'll understand my last post. I don't know where my life is going, but I know that I want to change my life. I want to be better. I went down hill so bad that now I don't know what to do. What do you do when you've gone so far down that you don't think you 'll be able to pull yourself back up. All I ever wanted was to be an example, be a good person. Have a family and live a full life for with my family. Now that its over, but yet its not. I think that my life is going on a wrong turn. But I'm strong and I know I'll pull through.


Blake, Devon and Chris. My really good guy friends that I love!

Brit, Erica, Karrisa and V
Elayne and me, we are meant for each other
My 24th birthday
Miss Erica

Ashlee and some strange guy I don't know.
My roomies threw me a party and I don't think I knew half of the people there. There was alot of drama, guy fights, but it was pretty cool, and it was way fun. I love my friends!

My girl loves screams for ice cream

My dad and I took bryn and tajiah out for ice cream, it ended up going every where but it was so worth it because bryn and ta ta loved it and had great time!

WOW

So my 24th birthday is coming up and I realized, I am a single mother to a 2 and 1/2 year old who throws terrible tantrums, I have a some what good job that pays ok. And I asked myself today, where is my life going? I have no one but me and bryn and my good friends. I haven't had any schooling. I started to cry last night and realized, I may be alone the rest of my life just skimping by trying my hardest to provide my me and my daughter. Every morning I get myself out of bed for her. Everyday I go to a job that I hate for her. Every night I provide dinner for her. Every time I have to drop her off at the babysitters I have to say to myself, it'll get better, I'm doing this for you babe. I wish so badly sometimes that I could have my old life back, my family. But we all make mistakes, but it'll always get better, it has too.
For now, adios